Whomever she/he is?

Dec. 1 /10 0200 PST The Song Of The Day Is “Miles From Nowhere” by Cat Stevens. Whomever she/he is ? God? Has given me another day , “well” so far. I never know if I am going to make through another day. I have had to daily increase my pain med’s . They no longer work very well. I have doubled the dose within the last few days. The pain is dulled some . Compared to two days ago ,twice the dose of the pain med’s bring ½ of the relief. I am exhausted as there has been little rest for quite awhile now. A CT scan was done yesterday . I hope that it shows that the cancer that is causing most of the pain , is in a part of my body that can be radiated again . I can feel /sense the cancer progressing hourly now. The worst pain feels like something is trying to rip and tear my right shoulder area away from the rest of my body. God must want me to die standing . Laying down in any position for more than 1 hour is impossible. I still say a prayer of “thank you for another day”. The suffering makes it a bit difficult sometimes . Sometimes I just cry. I don’t mean to , but I just do. I wish that I could write something that touches someone in a such a way as to inspire them to treat their fellow woman/man in such a way as to make their little bit of the world just a little better. I hope that , in my own small way , that I have made this world just a touch better before I leave shortly. Time is quickly running out for me to do much. Bye