I Just Can't

. Nov 8 / 10 0550 PST I have been sitting here since 0300 PST .Trying to write some. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu woops!!!!! I have been nodding in and out of consciousness since then. I am not taking more meds than are recommended so I do not think that it is the effects of the narcotics that affecting me in this way. I have thoughts in my brain but they can‘t seem to make their way down my arms , into my fingertips and on to the keyboard. I have been trying for over 6 hours now to write something and I will be dammed if I give up before at least some thought get put down on paper. The pains are particularly bad today, I think that I am starting to go blind also. In just can’t. No matter how hard I try to write I just can’t. I just keep passing out. If I am still amongst the living later, I will try again. BYE