Towards The End

Nov. 2 /10  The Song Of The Day Is : “Sunny Days” by Lighthouse. Since I spent most of my time alone I can “con” myself into forgetting how close to death , and how much suffering there is each day. The simple motions of getting through the day is a challenge each day. Waiting or forgetting to take the pain medication and the within a few hours the cancer draws it’s knives . I try to clean up . I look at the floor.I see bits of garbage on the floor. Then it strikes home that the simple motion of bending over to pick the pieces up will cause me to suffer. Then the fact strikes home ,that I know that I will be dying alone. This does not bother me most of the time . I do have to admit that when death come close and tries to embrace me I can get frightened . It may sound funny but a dying person can feel death hovering. While I wait , I try to prepare myself to face death with some dignity and courage. I try to do everything possible to remain relatively comfortable. This is a difficult aspect of my life now. I try to enjoy and appreciate every aspect of the life now the best that I can. I try to enjoy what life is left in me. Maybe Tomorrow