Remembrance Day

Nov. 10/ 10 The cancer: My hopes were up a little. Today I was disappointed I was hoping that the radiation treatment would give me some “normal time”. For awhile the symptoms were abating. Now they seem to be returning. It has been 3 weeks 2 days since my last radiation treatment. I was told that the full benefits would be felt after 4 weeks. I have a very aggressive form of cancer. My last brush with death started out with twinges of pain and extreme fatigue. Within a few days I was in constant bone crushing pain , barley able to swallow or breath and unable to lie down or eat much. I managed to fight all of this for over 50 days. Made the trip to Vancouver Canada and had 5 sessions of radiation. (the tumours in my lung can not be radiated again),, All the time hanging on to this world by the tips of my fingers. The radiation therapy for the lung is no longer an option. Even if it was I could not withstand going through that again. I pray that the symptoms are from something else and not the cancer , but I do not think that that is the case. Nov. 11 /10 It has now been “Remembrance Day” for 21 minutes. I ‘ll put all my problems aside and reflect upon those that have suffered and those that continue to do so. Sometimes I do envy those that died quickly. I will say a prayer. The Song Of The Day Is : “Lay Down” by Melanie