On Your Own

Nov.18 / 10 I have been trying to fight this insidious disease and all that It brings for a long time now. I have avoided the reaper on numerous occasions. People have said to my face “holy shit” your’e still alive ? Part of the reality of being classified as terminally ill (even though there are options available to help one live and there is still living that can be done) is that there is some support if one decides to medicate , lay down and die. The health care system will provide support and advice on how to do so. People seem willing to offer sympathy on your way out. If one tries to fight and stay alive and do some living however , they will find themselves pretty well on their own. Although I am sure that all are well meaning and well intentioned, the reality is that the terminally ill that hang on too long will be left to fend for themselves until the final few days and hours . Then everyone will crowd around , be sympathetic , and be willing to watch you die. I can understand that everyone has a life to live , but my concern now is for the terminally ill and my own battle to keep on for awhile .Numerous times I have heard “if there is anything we can do”, if you hang on for too long this just seems to become lip service and you will be left to fend yourself. I am not complaining , just accepting reality. Maybe Tomorrow.