Nothing Left

Nov.22 /10 The Song OF The Evening Is “The End” By The Doors. Just when I though that things would not get worse for at least a few days ,While the nurse came to my home today I discovered a 3x2 inch brand new tumour , the tumour was not there days ago. Last Time when I discovered a new tumour , the one under my arm ,it’s size doubled within a few days, as well as within a few days I was left curled up on the floor In indescribable pain. I could not even lift my arm . It has been just over a month since my last treatment. There has not been any good news for over 2 years now. I tell myself not to get my hopes up , but how can I not. But dam , they get continually dashed (the 7 months of excruciating chemotherapy did not shrink the tumour in my lung ) Tears flow because of this latest disappointment , I want to continue fighting , but how can I , every time That I suffer through therapy , it fails. I want to continue fighting but how can I. There is NOTHING left. BYE