Great West Life

Fri. Aug 6 /10 The Song Of The Day Is “Miles From Nowhere” by Cat Stevens Jumped out of bed this morning. Got down on my hands and knees and was gasping for breath. I felt like someone was chocking me. I went to the hospital yesterday. Coughing up blood .Had an x-ray done. Radiologists usually will not comment on what they see . In my case he said ,with a concerned look on his face , you have a serious problem, your airway is quickly being closed off by the tumour. More chemo therapy might ? , slow the growth of the tumour causing the problem , but my body just cannot handle more chemo therapy and there is no quality of life while receiving the therapy. I have worked 10 hour days before for weeks at a time . Sometimes I have done this while injured . This does not even come close to the difficulty associated with the chemo. I have already had an additional 5 cycles after being told that any more chemotherapy would not prolong my life or increase the quality of my life. The x-ray did give me reason to understand why I have been experiencing anxiety lately. The largest tumour is obstructing my airway. It feels like some one has their fingers wrapped around my trachea , trying to suffocate me. This also explains why I feel like I am on the verge of passing out all the time. I believe that I am at the threshold of how much radiation that my body can take , so radiation therapy is not an option. My time is on this planet is very short. It is good thing that I love eating ( that too) and that cooking is a means of therapy for me.Consequently I have not lost too much weight. My body is tanned and appears almost in shape. The insidious cancer is quickly choking the life out of me . There is just over 15 days left in the last summer that I will ever see. If I last that long. Either way I will be dead soon. I would like to enjoy these last days living in the fullest manner possible. (I have a very inexpensive bucket list) I would also like not to have to live hand to mouth during my last days. Either way I will be dead soon. I hate too have to lower myself to this but I am going to include the open letter again to "Great West Life(group benefits)" and to the trustees at Local 500 I.L.W.U. Vancouver Canada . For Gods sakes !!!!release the funds from my benefit plan so that I can live out my last few weeks with some dignity and independence. The money is going to be released soon anyways. An Open Letter To the Trustees from the Union ( Local 500 I.L.W.U.) that has control of my death benefits and Manulife Financial. Release my death benefit funds so that I can spend the last few weeks of my life with some sense of independence and die with some dignity. All that has to be done is “sign the papers“. It cost the Union nothing. It would change how I live my last days out for the better immensely. Manulife has already allocated the funds. The cheque is going to be released soon any ways. Manulife doesn’t care if the small amount of funds is released now or in a few weeks. Let a person living use the funds and maintain some security and dignity during their last days instead of throwing the funds into a hole in the ground…….. It is humiliating to have to spend ones last days chasing funds. Bye For Now See , Ya on The Other Side