Get Busy

Sun Aug. 8 /10 1007 How would you spend the last days of your life. I made it down to the beach. It was more of a struggle than it was 2 days ago. I said my three prayers. It is getting really difficult to find any comfort for even an hour a day. I always feel like I am on the verge of passing out or falling down. After the 7 months of chemo , I had a few weeks where I could of done some living. That opportunity has all but passed now , as the cancer is now winning. It does feel like I’ve been left here to rot now. No one was willing to work with me so that I could do some “livin” even though it would be to their advantage. That's just the way things go. I have to admit that there is some bitterness there. There is no time for that now. Time to get busy about this business of dying properly. Eyesight is going a bit funny and the pains are returning. The fatigue that I though could get no worse is now increasing. I am not going to die in an hospital bed all doped up. Bye for now see ya on the other side.