Close Your Eyes

Aug. 21 /10 0300 The Song Of The Day Is : “Flying Cowboys” by Riki Lee Jones Most times that I lay down , close my eye’s, I do not drift off into sleep. It feels more like that I am immediately in a different world. As only can be done in dreams , sometimes I drift as if I am in all places at once. Sometimes I am there ,whole and totally lucid in a separate reality. The characters , the events that occur and places that I travel to as real as going to work on Monday morning. These are no longer the type of dreams that feel like the subconscious mind mulling over previous events . The events and encounters demand to be recognized as being significant. When I return from these sojourns and my eyes open I am exhausted. The same way that you would feel after you have been away on a long trip. On some occasions there are comforting visits . People that I have known and have passed away make their way into the state that I am in. We embrace and they comfort and welcome. When I wake from these dreams there are tears streaming down my face. It may seem odd to some that I lend credence to the significance of premonitions and dreams. It is no less weird than believing that someone got nailed to a cross , rotted for days then came back to life , or that a fellow got swallowed by a whale and resided in the whales belly for awhile. I have spoke with people that have spent time with people like myself that are dieing from an incurable disease. They also came to realize the importance of premonitions and dreams to the person dieing. An experienced oncologists before going away on maternity leave gave me this last piece of advice. Pay attention to your cravings and gut feelings. Now here is a Dr. that has been along the journey towards trails end with many ,many people , and has learned that there is more to “doctoring” than pills and replacement parts. Back to the dreams. I am trying my hardest to write down and document these experiences. The difficulty being my mind and energy goes directly to trying to overcome constant discomfort that my body is in. I’ll try harder. I am not going to write about the effects of the cancer in this post. I’m going to try to overcome the symptoms for a bit. Bye For Now See Ya on The Other Side