Two Prayers

Thurs. July 29 /10 1107 The Song Of The Day Is “ Ain’t No Sunshine” as Performed By Bill Withers The Cancer : I hate to admit it . I get scared . There is 2 hours or so in the morning when I feel as if I am amongst the living. I get out and sit in the sun as often as I can. Although tanned I cans see deaths pallor seeping into the colour of the skin on my face. Some of the fear I am sure is physiological . My one lung does not work at all and the cancer spews toxins into my system. I constantly feel as if I have been poisoned and always feel on the verge of passing out. Although I still say a prayer of thanks and one selfish prayer each day , I have not been able to make a spiritual commitment without deep inside sensing that I am kidding myself. Each time that I sense death hovering I get a bit nervous and confused about my spiritual well being. One thing that I do know is that spirituality is linked to our behaviour and is affected by how we honestly feel within . Spirituality has little to do with organizations. Well the sun is shining. I am still breathing and kickin . I’ll get outside , I’ll say two prayers of thanks today. Although I am in constant pain and discomfort , dam scared sometimes too, I am still grateful that I am receiving the gift of another day. Bye For Now See ya On the other Side