April 3 / 10 0245 The Song Of the Day is “Where to Now St. Peter” by Elton John and Bernie Taupin , The Cancer and the chemo. The statistical prognosis of my life expectancy year ago last October was 6 to 8 months. The new prognosis at this stage is 2 to 3 months. Four more cycles of chemo will take 91 more days. This leaves me a bit confused as to why I am going through the chemo. The chemo has reduced the severity of the most severe of symptoms. Dealing with the effects of the chemo is not a pleasant way to live. I get some good hours for a few days after the first week after 3 days of getting pumped full of drugs. The first week is pure hell after being pumped full of dope. I am sometimes more comfortable than I was just prior to starting these latest cycles. I pray and hope to prove the statistics wrong. It would be nice if I would get a few months of at least semi-comfortable living after the chemo. I feel like I have so much more to do here . My body disagrees and impatiently rushes me towards the end. Each minute of each waking hour requires a push. There is no rest in sleep. It is difficult to motivate myself knowing what lies ahead in the near future. I try to get past all of the discomfort and finality of my situation and try to find some pretty words and motivation. I’m afraid that I become haggard and fall short a good part of the time. Bye for Now , See Ya on the Other Side . .
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