Tired

Sun. Feb. 28/ 10
I feel privileged that during the times when I feel relatively well and that I have luxury of some time to explore in any intellectual and spiritual direction that I choose. That is probably why I get frustrated when the cancer curbs my mobility and the pain muddles my thoughts. I tell the DR,s and other health care practitioners that my goal is to live long enough see a bit of the coming summer. Their response is that I should take things one day at a time. The pains that I experience seems to be the paramount concern. No one is saying “aw you’ll make it till summer”. Rather I more often than not hear “take things one day at a time”. It is a bit unnerving when they obviously consider my living for a few more months iffy.I am grateful for the periods of time that I am pain free. There is power in ancestry and strength in faith. Tired !