Sat.Sept.5/09 New set of pains started last night in my right leg leaving me in a situation where I can barely walk , the pain is so severe that It leaves me dizzy and short of breath . Getting into the positive is going to be difficult today. I believe that I have a lot to say before I die , politicaly , artistically and philosophically but dam the few semi-good hours that I have each day is either spend chasing $ to survive or in such pain that it is hard to get into a frame of mind from where any constructive thought can come from. Having a short amount of time to live one comes to realize a few things about what inspires oneself to keep going along this path we call living. One thing that I have noticed is how important our hopes and dreams for our future are. Some might think that living each day as if it were your last would be electric and exciting , although there is some truth to that our hopes and dreams for the future are the energy that keeps one going . Once one knows that there is no future , thoughts reverse and one thinks about what they can leave behind for others that are left behind. Labour day weekend yah! Our society seems to glorify media personalitys , performers , celebrities etc. when in reality it is the people who put up with the mundane and the dangerous jobs day in and day out that make our society and economy tick , everything else sprouts from the soil that these people till , Acknowledging these people is important as they have more grit , collectively sacrifice more and contribute more to society than any movie or rock star and are the real celebrities . I hope that this labour day everyone tkes a bit of time to recognize that without the sacrifices of these people we would have nothing