Into the Mystic

Wed. Sept30/09 0530 The song of the day is: “Into the Mystic” by Van Morrison Now there’s a hippie dippy song that takes me back to campfires on the beach , tuned guitars , crabs boiling in pot over a fire , graced by the presence of sweet women , the tantalizing fragrance of coppertone sun tan lotion on their skin perfuming the air, everyone comfortable ,safe and exited. The waves lapping making a pleasant sound like crystal with the harshness muffled out being broken. The Quote of the day is : “ Solace ,Comfort Wisdom all dwell in all places and are present in all lifes trials and tribulations we just need to learn how to look” azab About the cancer “ MMM “ Coffee and a cigarette ,small pleasures . My oncologist said that I should do what whatever make me feel good . At the stage that the cancer is in my body the dr”s say that it is doubtful that stopping smoking will increase my life expectancy or that continuing to smoke will decrease my life expectancy . Love those addictions . I have discovered some health supplements that work for me that decrease my suffering with my digestive system from the chemo , aloe vera juice and essiac works amazingly well for me , maybe it will work for others also. 20 days left before I make a decision whether or not to accept more chemotherapy (if I last that long) . The Dr;s have said that studies showed that it is unlikely that any more therapy will prolong my life or increase the quality of my life although a nurse told me that sometimes chemo is used to alleviate the pain . An oversized dose of heroin might do a better job of that. I wish that I did not have to deal with the mundane and could concentrate on the spiritual . Getting in to a spiritual frame of mind seems to be difficult when one has to concentrate or rather be concerned about getting by day to day. Those are the cards that are dealt to me so I will try to find solace and comfort in anywhere I can regardless of any obstacles and situations that I am confronted with. Solzhenitsyn found comfortable moments in the Gulag.