Mon. July 27/09 0455 Another day, another sunrise coming, yea ha!, another sunrise I hope. It is a new day and a new week, I will try to put the stress from last week behind me and enjoy the days coming and try to do something worth while, in one way I am fortunate I have time given to me to figure out this death thing and somehow have managed to make a real friend. I know that if I wanted to I could lay down and die within a week or two. I can feel death sneaking up when I drift off, when I go to bed I no longer sleep but I just slip off to another place. No more new pains today, just the regular pain and discomfort. Since I am uncomfortable all the time and get some relief when I am moving the rest of my body is getting muscular and tanned. I am extremely thankful that I am staying where I am and have the few people around that are around. I am going to try to get as much living in as I can while I can. Wed. July 29/09 How do I go about forgiving someone whom doesn’t think that they have done anything wrong and do not want to be forgiven? I have observed people when they are in fight mode , anything that is said to them will be taken the wrong way , even if you compliment them they will take that compliment as an insult , I have not found a way yet to break through that barrier . I find it best to not say anything to avoid a confrontation or I could annihilate them, but if they were to be annihilated no one would win. So back to my original thought I guess that when a person forgives someone in that situation it is only for their own benefit. How does this affect the price of beef, piece of mind baby, piece of mind. Thurs. July 30/09 I am trying to stave off the big black dog I think that I can stave him off today. If I listen to my body and rest every time when I feel tired I would just end up being bedridden I have to push myself at times and I have to rest at times , I just have to figure out when to do one and when to do the other. Fri. July 31/09 I can always sense when my cancer is progressing , my dreams become more vivid , colours that you can touch and I can feel other souls , The medical profession should pay more attention to what patients tell them rather than to drug company and medical supply salesmen. I have to get ready to go out and watch the sunrise and say my prayers.